To All The Guys I've Loved Before...

So the other day Jameil made a post where she thanked her ex boyfriend for breaking up with her and moving her closer to God. This is my version.

Close, But No Cigar
He was 10 years older and really wanted to get married and have kids. Of course, being 21 I wasn't ready for all of that (shit, I'm still not ready!), and he decided to get back with his ex and start a life with her because "he really wanted a baby and he wasn't sure when I'd be ready." Plus she was pregnant. LOL. At the time, I thought I was in love. But a month later I was dating again. I saw him four years later; he was married and a father. We met and caught up over lunch. Then he propositioned me. I told him I thought it was classless, and asked him to lose my information. That could have been me. Whew! I'm thankful that pops didn't raise no fool, or I could've been the wife at home with a new baby whose husband was trying to rekindle a relationship with his ex.

Disappearing Acts
Then there was the one that disappeared. Just stopped calling. I really liked him...but his mother couldn't stand me, and I think he used to do illegal stuff. Who knows where'd I'd be today if he'd continued to call? Thankfully I don't have to find out.

The Donkey Who Discovered The Catacombs
Y'all know how difficult it was for me to get over First Love. I thought that shit would never happen. I began to think I was destined to be a single woman who'd end up dying alone and being eaten by my neighbor's cat who got in through an open window. I still don't sleep with my windows open. Before him I really had my armor on (I believe one dude I dated called me a "cold fish").

But my recent meeting with him made me realize that he wasn't the dude for me. He is engaged and planning to spend the rest of his life with someone who (according to him) "has something missing, but he can't put his finger on it." That could have been me. Whew! I'm glad he made the decision that I wasn't for him, rather than keep me around knowing that there's something lacking in our relationship.

I guess you could say he's the donkey (and I mean it in the nicest way) who unwittingly uncovered this unique, special thing (me, in case you weren't paying attention *pops collar*) and just didn't realize what a grand discovery he'd made until after he'd released it to the world. And although I bitch and moan about these dates I've been on recently, I don't know that I'd change a minute of it. So to all the guys I've loved (or came close to loving) before, THANK YOU! You have changed my life for the better.

The stone that the builder refused will end up being the corner stone...